CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT F1 SEVERANCE AU
Sep. 5th, 2022 04:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
goaltenderguys the problem is that the most compelling severance premise for f1 is 1000000% maxiel..... but we know how i feel about this ship and its participants and also the universe is so daunting i feel like i could never write it :s i mean not that i think you can't write fic for ships you don't particularly "like" or are a fan of it's just that i know it'd expose how weak my grasp of characterization and lore is because i'm not properly invested........ For Shame.
actuallyyy i think it'd work for brocedes too (lewis staunch anti-severance activist, nico pushing himself to the limit and requesting severance so he can finally divorce himself of their history and beat lewis in #equalmachinery. even better if the severance destroys lewis emotionally and then nico immediately retires and reintegrates himself lmfao) but nico is so goofy i can't take it seriously 😭 though i think nico, mark, daniel, maybe charles in a faraway ferrari futurefic type fic, maybe pierre (omg imagine pierresteban where constructors can follow different policies on severance and red bull is one of the only mandatory severance teams... or red bull secretly makes max second fiddle drivers undergo severance HEOL) and maybeeee mick??? would all make interesting bases for severance. also jos 4 max backstory.
trying to think of logistics and it's like:
but like with the MAXIEL PREMISE. clearly i can't pin down the exact circumstances but it's soooooooo much to just think of severed dr x unsevered max, ~outie~ daniel as a personable "celebrity" completely emotionally void of what makes him compelling to his fans in the first place but of course still primarily thinking of this severance as a convenience—reaping the benefits with none of the pay! what's a phantom ache to the fast and easy life? et cetera. but then if you delve into the backstory, i quite like the idea of him choosing severance when he starts to struggle and thinking about how this shapes maxiel's dual dynamics. like he'd be at this point already far removed from his partnership with max, and max would hate it deeply but not feel enough entitlement to stop him, and he'd also probably still understand it on some fucked up basal level despite the idea being completely disconnected from his own reality. then of course this severance being what saves daniel's career.
and then you have MAX.... max whose father was severed during his entire racing career—while max was a baby and a toddler and then a kid racing karts—who remained severed even past f1, who always seemed like he was in the wrong skin no matter what side he occupied, who angrily, drunkenly dragged around the ghastly carcass of a televised self as he underwent reintegration, and max carries all of this—and his distance from his mother and sister–deeply, and racing is just so inextricably embedded into his personality and psyche that if he were to ever sever himself it would probably kill him entirely, at least at this age. so he knows that past every level of assumed incompatibility this is what truly separates him and daniel beyond repair.
god i feel crazy........ just trying to imagine what severed daniel would be like, whether he'd start to unravel emotionally at some point either from the inside or outside...... i can see outside daniel eventually resenting the emptiness of the separation, the money and the girls and the opulence with time amounting to nothing, and i can also see the grind of severance either wearing on inside daniel or changing him beyond recognition, and then the question would be whether max seeks out inside or outside daniel the most, but then i also like the idea of like...... them trying to set some sort of boundaries before the surgery and max having to break the rules to do one of those things????? like maybe before he gets severed daniel is like i don't want you to see me on the outside anymore because you'll still be YOU and I WON'T BE!!!!!! but then obviously afterward he FORGETS and max knows it's wrong to be around both of them but he can't help it. ("he told me not to come to you," he breathes out, pupils blown wide. / daniel blinks. "who did?" / "you," max bites. like it's obvious.)
where was i. i had so much more to say but i got distracted and now i think i need to go to bed. but like can someone please take this au from my hands and write something i would seriously pay money to see it executed for any f1 ship
actuallyyy i think it'd work for brocedes too (lewis staunch anti-severance activist, nico pushing himself to the limit and requesting severance so he can finally divorce himself of their history and beat lewis in #equalmachinery. even better if the severance destroys lewis emotionally and then nico immediately retires and reintegrates himself lmfao) but nico is so goofy i can't take it seriously 😭 though i think nico, mark, daniel, maybe charles in a faraway ferrari futurefic type fic, maybe pierre (omg imagine pierresteban where constructors can follow different policies on severance and red bull is one of the only mandatory severance teams... or red bull secretly makes max second fiddle drivers undergo severance HEOL) and maybeeee mick??? would all make interesting bases for severance. also jos 4 max backstory.
trying to think of logistics and it's like:
- would some teams force severance but then lie about it to keep up appearances (or vice versa)?
- e.g. imagine secretly severed dannyric who has to pretend to remember each race when he's outside the paddock to avoid any scrutiny over his mental state OR on the flip side a universe where severance is universally encouraged but you have unsevered max who has been playing dumb the whole time out of self-preservation except everyone just assumes that he's severed because of his intensity and race craft....... what da hell
- i really like the idea of reintegration after retirement being a possibility or maybe even being being recommended??? like if someone were to choose to remain severed their whole life there could be eventual bleed-through effects that if not medically addressed could end up debilitating & life-threatening. then of course there's the idea of this slow reconnection of self, reconciling parts that you willingly gave up or had taken away from you etc. etc. that is so fascinating and appealing to me
- also i guess with the first q it's like if we go down the Full Severance route we have 2 consider: you would obviously still know that you're an f1 driver and have access to footage of your races so it's not like you could be fully in the dark about everything traumatic that happens to you on track, the idea is just that things would be VERY emotionally + socially separate.... but i do wonder how teams would go about filling you in on major crashes/injuries that happen on the job, and then how that would translate to reintegration. like all those scrapes and aches you went home with forced to live with the vague direction of a "workplace incident" just to have your memories eventually syringed back in years and years later and reliving the acute blinding trauma of flipping over and crashing full-speed into the barriers..... and presumably when you get severed you lose all your single-seater racing memories too!!! (though maybe not karting because i think that could be an interesting angle. like all you can remember is being a kid, having fun, learning to drive with your weight first, how things only sort of mattered and you could get ice cream with your parents afterward and lived at home and there was the vague reassurance of an easy life..... & then it's just blank) idk idk i just think there is such an insane amount of potential to uncover here
but like with the MAXIEL PREMISE. clearly i can't pin down the exact circumstances but it's soooooooo much to just think of severed dr x unsevered max, ~outie~ daniel as a personable "celebrity" completely emotionally void of what makes him compelling to his fans in the first place but of course still primarily thinking of this severance as a convenience—reaping the benefits with none of the pay! what's a phantom ache to the fast and easy life? et cetera. but then if you delve into the backstory, i quite like the idea of him choosing severance when he starts to struggle and thinking about how this shapes maxiel's dual dynamics. like he'd be at this point already far removed from his partnership with max, and max would hate it deeply but not feel enough entitlement to stop him, and he'd also probably still understand it on some fucked up basal level despite the idea being completely disconnected from his own reality. then of course this severance being what saves daniel's career.
and then you have MAX.... max whose father was severed during his entire racing career—while max was a baby and a toddler and then a kid racing karts—who remained severed even past f1, who always seemed like he was in the wrong skin no matter what side he occupied, who angrily, drunkenly dragged around the ghastly carcass of a televised self as he underwent reintegration, and max carries all of this—and his distance from his mother and sister–deeply, and racing is just so inextricably embedded into his personality and psyche that if he were to ever sever himself it would probably kill him entirely, at least at this age. so he knows that past every level of assumed incompatibility this is what truly separates him and daniel beyond repair.
god i feel crazy........ just trying to imagine what severed daniel would be like, whether he'd start to unravel emotionally at some point either from the inside or outside...... i can see outside daniel eventually resenting the emptiness of the separation, the money and the girls and the opulence with time amounting to nothing, and i can also see the grind of severance either wearing on inside daniel or changing him beyond recognition, and then the question would be whether max seeks out inside or outside daniel the most, but then i also like the idea of like...... them trying to set some sort of boundaries before the surgery and max having to break the rules to do one of those things????? like maybe before he gets severed daniel is like i don't want you to see me on the outside anymore because you'll still be YOU and I WON'T BE!!!!!! but then obviously afterward he FORGETS and max knows it's wrong to be around both of them but he can't help it. ("he told me not to come to you," he breathes out, pupils blown wide. / daniel blinks. "who did?" / "you," max bites. like it's obvious.)
where was i. i had so much more to say but i got distracted and now i think i need to go to bed. but like can someone please take this au from my hands and write something i would seriously pay money to see it executed for any f1 ship
